OK, so this is more about my state of mind right now.
I’m feeling a little lost regarding direction and purpose here at art school over the last few weeks, particularly after doing crit. Which on a side note, wasn’t helpful at all and if anything helped me to lose confidence in what I was exploring… but that’s another issue.
So, I’m not saying that I’m questioning whether I should be here… it’s clear this is where I want to be but I’m finding it difficult to be motivated right now.
With second year finishing in a little under 4 weeks time, I’m fully aware that this isn’t the time to feel this way.
But what is the root of these feelings? I think it’s because it feels like I’m just going through the motions, going from one assignment to the next, caught up in the regular domestics of daily life ouside of uni too, with no time to explore the various creative ideas I have… working for others only, not for myself.
In an effort to regain some control over an aspect of my art practice, I started a new photographic series involving the compost bins within Toad Hall, which I was finding quite fun. I mistakenly mentioned it at crit and it was seen as stronger than the work I’d spent three weeks working on for uni. The resounding suggestion was to explore the compost more… thus uni threatens to take that personal project from me too… I guess I’m wondering where am I in all of this?
I could just need a break… which I’ll get in 4 weeks… but that fact is still not motivating me.
What to do?